Monthly Archives: November 2014

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Happy Birthday – RJ’s 33rd

Happy birthday RJ. Today you would have been 33.

I hope you’re up in heaven
Smiling down at me
It’s been quite the journey
Lots ups and downs
I keep you in my memory
Never with a frown
You taught me many lessons
You filled my heart with joy
To me you were a blessing
You never treated me like a toy
You made me feel so cherished
Your affections were never coy
You were playful and sincere
I remember when we shared
Our first glass of beer
Sitting by the creek
In those awful little chairs
We were quoting old movies
Laughing through it all
You were filled with with so much beauty
We had such a ball
Even when we struggled
Through the depths we would have crawled
I’m happy that I had you
For the short time that I did
Hope was once renewed
And the fear of which you rid
Enriched my life completely
Loving you completely
Was one thing right I did.

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A Letter To My Lost Love

Hello my love… I hope that you are happy in heaven. I have been doing well here, making my way, moving forward on some things I’ve wanted to do for so long. I think I’ve found my calling. Overall, I’d say I’m content with my life and where it’s going. It’s hard at times, as life can be. There are many things to celebrate. I’ve found someone that I care about deeply. I know he cares about me as well. My son is expecting a baby so I’m going to be a grandmother! Can you believe it?? It’s so crazy. I’m happy though.
I think of you, although not as often as I used to. Doesn’t mean I love you any less. It’s good for me to be able to move forward. You’ll always be in my heart, as you were before I ever met you. I just need you to let me go so he can love me too. I will always love you my sweet sunflower eyes. But I need you to please let me be loved by someone new. He is a good man. He treats me well. He cares for me. He is genuine.
I love you and will always have you in my heart. Please do that for me and help bring him closer to me because I need him in my life right now. I love you, but I love him too.